Hurt, hurt and owwwh!
Mar. 22nd, 2004 07:17 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
purplerabbitYesterday was the first time we had to send Rowan back since I got off the mood altering prescriptions. Damn, damn and yecch!
First the crying and crying. Then the numbness. Then the rage. Then cried myself to sleep.
I think I forget sometimes how much rage is a part of grief. The horrible anger at having someone you love taken away from you. The way helplessness makes one want to lash out. Yecch!
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uncledark. I love you.
I even got angry at folks for not responding to my posts yesterday and was very tempted to cancel my livejournal account. Sigh. I hope today will be better.
Today I am so very tired. Up early, I am not really sleepy but very weary. Please let today be better.
First the crying and crying. Then the numbness. Then the rage. Then cried myself to sleep.
I think I forget sometimes how much rage is a part of grief. The horrible anger at having someone you love taken away from you. The way helplessness makes one want to lash out. Yecch!
Sorry
uncledark. I love you.I even got angry at folks for not responding to my posts yesterday and was very tempted to cancel my livejournal account. Sigh. I hope today will be better.
Today I am so very tired. Up early, I am not really sleepy but very weary. Please let today be better.
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Date: 2004-03-23 05:53 am (UTC)I am looking into getting a new laptop so that I am not out of touch every time I go out of town (which is a whole lot right now). It often takes me so long to get caught up when I do get home.
I do understand how you feel and wish that there was something I could do to make it hurt less.
Love you.