Hurt, hurt and owwwh!

[purplerabbit]

Yesterday was the first time we had to send Rowan back since I got off the mood altering prescriptions. Damn, damn and yecch!

First the crying and crying. Then the numbness. Then the rage. Then cried myself to sleep.

I think I forget sometimes how much rage is a part of grief. The horrible anger at having someone you love taken away from you. The way helplessness makes one want to lash out. Yecch!

Sorry uncledark. I love you.

I even got angry at folks for not responding to my posts yesterday and was very tempted to cancel my livejournal account. Sigh. I hope today will be better.

Today I am so very tired. Up early, I am not really sleepy but very weary. Please let today be better.

Comments

[lady-equine.livejournal.com]

Awwww, sweetheart. We are here and supportive of your pain.

The strength of your family to bear this tragedy, over and over and over again, simply astounds me. The love of Rowan for each of you and your love for that darling, golden boy endures through it all. Endures and thrives. You all belong to each other and nothing will sever that tie now. Time will win your long war for you, and in the end, your family will have won out, to be a united family once again.

Dear lady, we here you. Dear lady, we are there for you. Dear lady, we hurt for you and our hearts break to watch your pain. We love you. And we miss you.