How am I?

[purplerabbit]

I wanted to thank everyone who wrote kind words of love and encouragement. I needed that. You don't have to have profound words of wisdom -- I probably wouldn't be able to take them in right now anyway. Just knowing people care helps me get through.

I am still pretty rocky. When I am working on stuff, like gardening, I am better. The weather didn't help today. I miss my sunshine, especially his smile. I am pretty depressed in general. Bouts of sadness, anger, self-loathing, fretting, scared... all yecch. Sigh. Maybe tomorrow will be better.