purplerabbit: Dany at Pcon (Mama & Son)
purplerabbit ([personal profile] purplerabbit) wrote2007-05-14 02:29 pm

Mother's Day Understandings

You ever notice how one person epiphany is another person's "duh?"

My Mother's Day was difficult on a number of levels. It usually is but this one was particularly complex and brought with it a number of realizations about myself. Some of which were part of the conversation we had on Fibromyalgia, after watching the film. But others were about what I and my partners want from each other.

And this is what I have come to realize the next day:

  • There is only one person in the world who has the legitimate right to expect me to make the world safe for them - my son.

  • I am incapable of protecting my son or anyone else I love from all harm.


This sounds duh, but it has been tearing me apart of years. I want to make the world a safe place for those I love. But my inability to protect my son has nearly driven me insane.

So the second half of this epiphany:

  • I do not have the power to make this world a safe place for anyone, not my son or myself. I never had. My mama did not have the power to protect me either. No one has it.

  • We can only be there to support each other through it. My role as someone who loves is to help those I love in dealing with the world in which we actually live.