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Sick again...
Jan. 2nd, 2005 01:48 pmI am home sick with a bad head & chest cold.
The guys and our boy have gone to the memorial ceremony for Teri. I had wanted to be there. The ceremony will include burning letters to her in a bonfire on the beach. My lungs have trouble handling cold air or smoke on good days. I would have been an extra burden they didn't need today, so I stayed home. I wrote my own letter to Teri for them to burn as well. In it, I promised her that she will not be forgotten. As part of that promise I pulled out a video with her and then 9-month-old Rowan for him to watch this morning. I wanted him to see her before she became so very ill. In the video, baby-Rowan sits in her lap while Gram Teri plays the piano. He is spell bound and then begins to help her play. She takes his small hands and gives him his first music lesson. He claps happily after each time. It was a beautiful scene and I am so glad we had the video on.
One bright spot in the loss, Rowan would have gone to Iowa today but gets to stay until Wednesday. He is happy about that. He always wants more time with us. It was also important for him to get to see his aunts and his grandmother's partner again. Teri's death after so many years of illness is not a shock but still a loss.
The guys and our boy have gone to the memorial ceremony for Teri. I had wanted to be there. The ceremony will include burning letters to her in a bonfire on the beach. My lungs have trouble handling cold air or smoke on good days. I would have been an extra burden they didn't need today, so I stayed home. I wrote my own letter to Teri for them to burn as well. In it, I promised her that she will not be forgotten. As part of that promise I pulled out a video with her and then 9-month-old Rowan for him to watch this morning. I wanted him to see her before she became so very ill. In the video, baby-Rowan sits in her lap while Gram Teri plays the piano. He is spell bound and then begins to help her play. She takes his small hands and gives him his first music lesson. He claps happily after each time. It was a beautiful scene and I am so glad we had the video on.
One bright spot in the loss, Rowan would have gone to Iowa today but gets to stay until Wednesday. He is happy about that. He always wants more time with us. It was also important for him to get to see his aunts and his grandmother's partner again. Teri's death after so many years of illness is not a shock but still a loss.
