Seesaw Life

Did you know I hate seesaws, roller coasters, anything that moves like that? Severe motion sickness.

Unfortunately my life often seems to imitate the motion of such contraptions.

Wednesday -- terrible.
Thursday - great.
Friday - upsetting.

Does that mean today will be good? I hope so.

Wednesday morning I received a call and email that upset me very badly. Then we found out the results of mom's tests, that they postponed surgery and that surgery would be much more complicated. All of this upset me so much I spaced out my physical therapy appointment and spent the day alternating between depressed and angry. Working hard on the yard was my only good time.

Thursday was the tea party and film crew return. It was great. I had a wonderful time socializing with Tammy, Yvonne, weirdocatdragon, and redhatmary, got to host a fancy tea party, got to work with Jari and her crew, and got to spend a lot of time with Tammy, (now unipegasus). Went to bed exhausted but happy.

Friday, woke up with a headache. Had to coordinate getting food from the food bank, going to visit a friend to talk over my troubles (thank you so much), and then take my mother to the doctor. The talk with dawnd was like a productive therapy session -- it was very good and it left with things to think about that are uncomfortable for me. The doctor appointment for my mom just pissed me off. They made us go back to her general doctor just so he could tell us there is nothing to be done but surgery or she dies, and, of course, with surgery she is high risk and could die. We knew that bozo. Then he tried to lecture her on loosing weight. What an idiot!

The second half of Friday was better but I was in such a difficult head space it was hard to enjoy myself. airshipjones had a job interview which went well and we expect at least a second interview. fuzzydragon, airshipjones and myself worked on the garden and it is looking pretty amazing out there. weirdocatdragon and sweet Victoria were also over and I got to spend some time playing and snuggling with my darling little girl. She is growing so very fast. Nice to still be able to hold her in my lap. When I went to bed early, uncledark was writing and airshipjones was doing his homework for grad school.

I woke at 7 AM and have been puttering about. I am sipping my tea and trying to prepare for the day. Jari and her crew will be back this morning. They want to film us going somewhere together so we are going to the Farmer's Market.

22 days until the sun returns...

Why doesn't she visit?

It has come to my attention that many people do not understand why I don’t come to their house or otherwise travel more. Some have even decided that it is some type of selfishness on my part where I make everyone come to me.

Do folks really want to know the real reasons behind my partial isolation? They aren’t pretty and they are hard to explain, but if you really want the answer and will be willing to read them, I will try to explain.

Problem is that I don’t know if people really want the answer or are willing to read the long explanation that would be needed. If you are willing to read it, I will try to write it. Please let me know.